not exactly pumped by the new year. new years aren't really my new thing. same goes to valentines, xmas & my birthday (i know i'm odd so sue me).

lets have a recap on year 2009, shall we?

started off 2009 thinking it would be a different yet fairly good year. i straightened out my priorities & thought out what i really needed.

so what happened to an presumably innocent year? shyt happens. lets just put it that way. one thing led to another. & everything just went downhill. physical & emotional turmoil all packed into one. even my grades went down. did a lot of stewpid things that probably weren't worth the cause. at least i woke up & realize, i was being ignorant. i gave up what i wanted for what i needed in the end. at least i can say i have no regrets, but if i had to name one, it'd be for being too naive to see the truth.

at least i can proudly say, i got through the worst point of my 17-year old existence. & i know that one day i might look back on all of these & just laugh it off. well really, there's no such thing as being totally at lost or in despair. perfect example given during The Simpsons is when Bart says, "today is the worst day of my life." Homer replies "your worst day SO FAR~" lol. lame but yet in this insane, twisted way so true. =)

2009, minus the 2 negatives that happened, would be a pretty good year i would say. bonded with people i would never have had the chance of getting close to the year before. & these are the same people who keep me going, who make me laugh even when i don't want to & who gave me a purpose to be lame. my year wouldn't have been the same without my kakis & tofu clan. =)

how would i sum up 2009? they say pictures speak a thousand words. so here goes:


2010, is a mystery. i don't like uncertainties. hence, i'm not a fan of new years. i've got a feeling it's gonna be full of ups & downs. heading out on my own early this year. but than again, life itself is often described as a roller coaster. & even when i thought all hope was gone, 2009 wasn't THAT bad. besides, how much worse can 2010 get compared to the lowest point in my life that took place this year?

2010?! BRING IT ON!

p.s. Dear 2010, please be a lil kinder than 2009. i would deeply appreciate it. thank you. =)

dreams are silent wishes the heart makes