Thursday, August 27, 2009 @ 1:51 PM
just feel like venting out again. my blog is relatively dead. lol.
holidays. been out everyday since friday. fu~ watched up ystday & had cls party at my hse. giler tired this morning.
Up was reli, reli, reli nice. in my opinion tat is. reli touching. felt kinda depressed after watching it. felt abit nostalgic & wistful. but i wasn't the only person feeling lyk tat. we're not always as alone as it seems. =)
couldnt help but wish i cud find somebody & spend the rest of my life wif him & grow old together. & we'd still be in love, or more in love, then we were b4, even when we're old & wrinkly, even if he sold ballooons & i had to work in a zoo. lol.
how often do u see love like that? true love is extinct. high school romances, especially, are shallow, i've come to realized. no matter how much we try to tell ourselves: "no, it's gonna be diff this tym." thats reality. full stop.
when u look back & think of all those heartfelt promises & vows of forever, u can't help but wonder what happened to them. & maybe thats why, u see promises as nothing more than lies. promises are nothing more than empty words than bring disappointment in the end.
& the person u used to know so well. who are they now but strangers u thought u knew? at least they helped u realize, u can never truely noe some1. sometimes u see, but u don't really see. they're not the pretenders, we're their believers. believers of what they could have been. i'd love to know whether he ever truly meant all those things he said to be. but i know i'm better off not knowing.
i wasn't always such a sadistic person. it's just that i've been let down too many times. lol.
but it's not just u & me, there's an army of people like us out there & we're not alone. i wish i cud say things to make u feel better, but then again i was, or should i say, i am just like u. & i know words wun change anything. holding on is not the true act of strength, sometimes, it's letting go. u just gotta learn to let go, taufufa. =)
currently addicted to: she always gets what she wants-prime circle
i was a dreamer before u went & let me down
