been feeling rather random these few days. got that "ants-in-my-pants" syndrome. lol. forgive me if i say nonsensical stuff lyk the above. its the long-term effects of being frens wif yc & randomly switching places in class to tok to random ppl. did i mention chaky is very entertaining wen he laughs hysterically? *gasp* tofu boy & triangle boy read my blog! i tot my blog damn dead & it's main purpose is for me to vent out coz i lyk writing. =)

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my cat twitches like some spastic kitty when she sleeps. (due to randomness this is gona be a random post) i wonder what she dreams about. her younger kitten days perhaps? =D she's a senior feline now. 9yrs old. (for cats:9x5.5=49.5 human yrs). wonder whether she dreams about natasha & misses her like i do. *sigh*

feel kinda pathetic sometimes for missing her afta 5mths. for that matter, whenever i find myself playing back the past in my head. when there's so many other things i ought to be worried about, & when there are so many ppl out there who are way worse off, it feels selfish to be this way. i miss the things that i've lost. although it'll never be the same as it was before.

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speaking of random topics. unofficially decided lichin's cina theme song is 傻瓜:
傻瓜我们都一样,在爱情里受了伤.相信这个他不一样,却又再一次受伤.
傻瓜我们都一样,受了伤却不投降,相信付出会有代价,代价却是一句傻瓜.

mine on the other hand is 爱笑的眼睛:
离开你我才发现自己 那爱笑的眼睛
流了泪 当一个人看旧电影
是我不小心而已
离开你我才找回我自己 那爱笑的眼睛
再见到你 我一定让自己
假装很坚定

(blardy hell. why lately so many ppl tink i'm a banana? i got listen to a few chinese songs sumore kay... saya orang cina!)

thought of this question the other day while i was daydreaming. would u go through a relationship, knowing that it'll bring u the happiest memories u may ever have, but at the same time, it will inflict the deepest hurt u'll ever feel? (let me stress again, i've been really random). i asked onn this ques. he said he would. coz he said the happiest memories can't cause u pain in the end; i asked lichin this ques. she told me she wouldn't. bcoz she wouldn't want to deal with the pain in the end; i asked my cousin, my cousin said "THINK OF SPM LA!". haha. so i on the other hand, don't really have an answer for my own question. lol. because in the end, it's always those memories of laughter that brings u to tears. to have all u ever wanted, to feel it so close to u, so real, & to lose it d very next second. it's unbearable. however, to give up a moment of bliss just to keep your heart safe, is it possible to never ever regret that decision? to never ever wonder what could have been, what may have been? & it's better to have loved & felt its fall, than to have never loved at all.

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everyone needs a fugly pic of themself.

this is me when i'm at home & unaware of my appearances bcoz im hidden behind the concrete walls of my home. LOL. koon said i look beyond recognition. ahh..the capabilities of a fringe!

RANDOM SIAL

p.s. how many times have i mentioned the word "random" in this post?


曾经拥有刻骨铭心;现在只想天长地久♥

my retarded kakis hu surprised me♥

can't believe i was soo blur while it was damn obvious they were up to something prior to my bday! monday morning afta the seafield carnical (which btw was fun) suddenly shiva, xf & lichin ajak-ed me to gym. lil did i know it was all part of d plan to get me out of the house. lol. things didn't reli work well for them. coz i was alone at home during those few days & d oni spare keys i had were accidentally left wif eugene. in other words, i was imprisoned in my own house! X3 i heard from them later this lil mishap totally threw them of their plans & created minor panic among them. oops! lol. so eugene cam & drop the keys off so i cud "go to lunch wif kelly". before leavig the house i was watching the korean drama Boys Over Flowers (ok-ok saje la). den suddenly the doorbell rings & i was thinking "wth? siape so bad timing?". & i see this retard standing der wif a big ass sign so i assumed it was those annoying door-to-door salesperson. afta closer inspection i realized the sign had my name on it & my pictures. lyk wth?! so i opened the door & found my retards wif a collage, ice-cream & home-made apple crumble!

not bad for noobie bakers. lol. i heard siew koon & yong cheng helped them out. so thax to them as well. =) after much sampating, we gathered arnd my laptop that was still on & went blogsurfing. just realized how some blogs can be damn entertaining. those "bitch-non-stop" & LOA bimbo blogs. afta the girls left, yc & koon came over to eat some apple crumble. lol. they were telling me how they were squabbling during the baking & art project process. typical of them. =)

imagine someone standing outside your house with that!
eventhough we might not exactly be a "clique", we're an awesome pacakage. & eventhough we don't spend as much as time with each other as other "gangs", but at least we know we'll always have each others' backs & that our frienship is honest & never selfish ♥

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my birthday itself, it wasn't the same, not even close to the one i had last yr. maybe it wasn't as memorable, but it was sweet in it's own way. =) got presents from my boys. went out to lunch at pizza uno wif karuna, gene & koon. i tink they're deriving a plan to fatten me up. =(

from karunaby far the most lame creative gift from jin onn. look closer. 7th of july is missing.
it says " at least this yr, u're bday is gone. -me". typical jin onn =)

second prize for creative gift wud go to jit heang. he gave me his nametag! wth. X3

& of course, thank u to those of u who wished me through fon calls, msgs etc. deeply appreciated. =)

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the day i turned 17, i learned how to move on. & rock bottom is not the end, it's just a good solid ground to put your feet on. a broken heart can be put back together, & it CAN love again. & when the world tells u to give up, hope whispers to give it another try. =)

this is me, at 17.


currently addicted to:
You Be The Anchor That Keeps My Feet On The Ground, I'll Be The Wings That Keep Your Heart In The Clouds -MayDay Parade
Dear Maria Count Me In -All Time Low(awesome band i just got addicted to)
Pages -There For Tomorrow


the day i thought i'd never get through, i got over you