Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People.

1. You’re the closest person to me while I was at Singapore. I think your girlfriend is one lucky chick to have someone as caring & patient as you. Stay safe in Taiwan. I promise I won’t be such a 傻瓜 anymore.

2. Still my best friend after 12 years. We’re still going strong. What more can I say that I haven’t said yet?

3. We know almost everything there is to know about each other. I am completely myself when I’m with you. I hope he takes good care of you, & you finally find what you’ve always wanted in him. Many loves.

4. You’re one of the sweetest guys I know. My favourite memory with you this year was when I got into your car & started crying, & later on we sat at the park in USJ11 & watched aunties dance to “Sorry Sorry”. Bros before hoes. *chest bumps*

5. You’re the most sincere person I know. I’m sorry I hurt you in the past, but I’m glad you’ve finally found the right girl. Thank you for being so understanding. I’ll always remember you saying, “He’ll come back to you one day, I’m sure of it. Any guy would be crazy if he didn’t”. & thanks for always being there to help me move forward.

6. I remember you used to be a stern man of few words. I guess it pains everyone to watch your health falter in this manner. Spending those few weeks with you made me realize that life is really impermanent. Everyone is praying for a miracle for you.

7. Funniest guy ever. Always makes me laugh even if I’m feeling like shyt. You have no idea what you’ve done for me. Thanks.

8. I trust too easily, too readily. & I’m thinking, I might have trusted the wrong person. I listened to him, despite your warnings. & I’ve probably breached your trust. I hope we’ll patch things up soon.

9. I’m sorry you never got the chance to know the person he used to be before I broke him. You would have liked him better before he turned this way. I’m sorry he did that to you. I’m sorry you’re still & probably will always be in the dark. I guess it’s better this way.

10. Things always get complicated, even after more than two years. You’ve given me the most amazing memories a girl can ask for. Yet at the same time, you’ve made your way up the ladder of the worst cheating bastards I’ve come across. You told me that the guy who gets me will be the luckiest guy in the world. I’m sorry you’re not that guy, you always realize things when it’s too late. I told myself that I had to cut you off. I’ve deleted you from my facebook, my messenger, my phone, & my life. I will forget you. In fact, I don’t remember you.

Nine things about myself.

1. Music is orgasmic

2. I talk to my cat

3. I get excited around cuddly animals

4. I’m a thinker. Something is always on my mind

5. If I could disregard everything, I’d like to be a writer

6. I keep a lot of things to myself

7. Lying on my bed with a good book in hand is #2 best orgasmic feeling

8. I’m pretty awesome at masking my sadness

9. I care too much about things that may or may not matter

Eight ways to win my heart.

1. Sing like John Mayer

2. Be lame with me

3. Do random things with me

4. Write me songs & poems

5. Be an anti-kpop

6. Good taste in music

7. Romantic

8. Hold my hand & never let go

Seven things that cross my mind a lot.

1. The past

2. Music

3. The future

4. I’m always tired

5. I need to pee

6. I wished i owned a Borders bookstore

7. Philosophical nonsense

Six things I do before I fall asleep

1. Read a book

2. Listen to music

3. Brush my teeth

4. Think myself to sleep

5. Text someone

6. Play games on my phone

Five people who mean a lot.

(in no order whatsoever. & wow. just five?)

1. Parents

2. Yi Jing

3. Eugene

4. Jun Hao

5. Yik Ru

*bonus number six. The cina kakis

Four things you’re wearing right now.

1. Cookie monster tee

2. Glasses

3. Undies

4. Shorts

Three songs that you listen to often.

1. Heartbreak Warfare -John Mayer

2. Make You Feel My Love -Adele

3. Falling Slowly from the movie “Once”

Two things you want to do before you die.

1. Travel around the world

2. Find true love

One confession.

I am just waiting for someone to save me. Save me from this vicious cycle of us finding each other time after time. I used to think that maybe it’s a sign to stop separating. Now I’m thinking, this is just a cruel joke. I have to save myself from you.